30 Days

Tonight was pretty hard..  had dinner out just at Hans but Kat didnt know about my 30 day alcohol free crazy idea.  She suggested we get wine…  i declined… and got soft drink…  anyway..   that bit was ok…   then we went to his majesty’s theatre and there was wine, champers beer.. all for sale obviously…  but we were standing around waiting for people…  it made me want one…   i held Kats drink for a while.. sniffed the beer.. it smelt good!!   but i declined… didnt have any.. was tempting to have a sip…  but didnt!  I feel good that I didnt do it now…  but at the time… i felt like a loser…   im guessing this is only gonna get harder